GuamaMama

It's raining. It's flooding. Like I wrote..quasi-third world. this happens every fucking year at the same time, and with all the construction and infrastructure improvement why is it that the roadways flood every year? Widening roads is important. Yes. Strengthening macadam is vital to commercial truck traffic. Ok. But improving drainage or whatever the hell prevents the annual flooding of the roads is not a priority?? Ugh!!

posted by techa @ 4:21 PM 0 Comments

whatever happened to genX-ers? Have they gone into the quiet of middle age with bleached blonde locks, aging neck and sunken cheekbones? Are they still listening to the Flaming Lips or better yet Mudhoney? Are they raising their children on vegan clothing and food? Do they recongnize that Daft Punk's new single is merely disco? Whatever happened to those Cure-loving teens? Did they perhaps grow into the adults who listen to Coldplay and say 'been there, done that?" Have they inadvertantly become their parents: hating and judging the young world around them? Or wait, hadn't they always done that? Or are some of the alterna-boy and alterna-girl crowd NOW fighting adulthood tooth and nail, pegging their jeans (sorry, but that's skinny jean to the rest of the world), pencil fighting, and throwing bbq keggers, cooler than any frat houses could have dreamed.

posted by techa @ 1:34 PM 0 Comments

I can no longer stand and wonder...cause I'm driven by this hunger...Ronnie lane sings and Steve Marriott backs him up. I keep watching youtube...I'm still wishing that I was a rock star and it's all kind of sad really because now as I start the climb through my forties...I wonder where the rest of my life will go from here....I can no longer stand and wonder..cause I'm driven by this hunger....

posted by techa @ 12:42 PM 0 Comments

It seems as if so many upheavals are happening to people around me. change is good and a very radical concept for many to understand, grasp, and accept. But I see it everywhere. People are moving to different countries, or moving domiciles and creating entirely new ones with others whom they love. Sometimes the change ahs to do with emotional states...like new possibilities for love...all of these are happening around me. Then I see my son. He changes everyday. He never fails to surprise...I discovered yesterday, as well as another little boy, that my child's capacity to exhibit rage knows no bounds...this development, althought not too surprising, is something I don't really wanna deal with. I'm not quite sure how to handle it. I got mad myself at him....I was like a cop interrogating him and I regret that action so much. Like I said, change is difficult for many to understand....I can accept it, but I can't understand what to do with it. My son is changing...he's experiencing very primal emotions , not for the first time I know, but he's expressing these emotions in ways i don't know how to handle. He hasn't gotten physical with someone not since last year, and then I just waitied and hoped that things would change. I should've been proactive this entire time....I don't know now waht to do.

posted by techa @ 9:32 AM 0 Comments

Congratulate me!! I'm an honorable mention. I entered a story of mine in a contest being judged by a literary agent for WW Norton. I won honorable mention (well, I'm one of 25)

My first contest. I'm so happy about this. I'll be happy about this for a long time.

posted by techa @ 10:58 AM 0 Comments

Someone said I should just write. Actually no one has ever really said that to me, but I think it appropriate that someone should have...perhaps they have.

I'm reading "Borderliners" right now. And I also have been going through a Toni Morrison phase, mostly because that's what the library here has. And they've filed "Jazz" as a 'new' book. Yikes. That's where I live. "Borderliners" also, but I'm thankful because I've been wanting to read that one for a few years now.

I'm glad that Rent is over. I'm glad because I can get back to my child. He is crazay but he is a blast and I wouldn't have it any other way.

posted by techa @ 1:38 PM 0 Comments

It's been getting harder and harder to make time for this child o' mine. I've been feeling guilty lately, and he's been getting angrier and angrier. My greatest fear is that I'm going to raise a drug dependent teen, filled with resentment. I mean, rehearsals aren't going to last forever...but I still feel bad. So why am I doing this play? Because I think I have to. I want to. My ego needs it badly. After all, I am going through a mid-life crisis. After all, I'm going to be 40 in a little bit over a month.

posted by techa @ 5:30 PM 0 Comments